Monday, October 15, 2012

I don't know boy, I think I maybe, falling for you.


When I got off the old relationship and took a year-long break to sort out my mind. I simply decided that I will seek happiness from my life. Whatever I do, with whomever would I be, I want to be happy.

B. 

I guess God granted my wish. Alhamdulillah.
I found you =)



Sunday, October 14, 2012

Penat la grow up!

Seriously, memang penat.

Dulu kau komplen bagai bila tengah belajar kan. "Oih cepat lah habis belajar, aku tak sabar nak kerja, nak pegang duit sendiri, nak itu nak ini blablabla"

Sekarang kau kerja, lagi bertambah responsibility dan benda yang kau kena fikir.

Masuk je gaji, bukan boleh terus belanja semua beli apa yang kau suka macam lah takde hari esok. Instead;
mula la buat budgeting, tolak duit bil itu bil ini, duit simpanan ASB MSG WTH apa apa lah.

Jumpa sedara mara, kawan-kawan parents, tanya "Dah kerja ke? Kat mana? Bila nak kahwin? Tak lama lagi la ni ye?" sambil sengih-sengih kerang busuk.

Dulu selalu attend birthday party kawan-kawan. Sekarang attend kenduri kahwin kawan-kawan.

Dulu main dengan anak patung kawan-kawan. Sekarang main-main dengan anak kawan-kawan.

Nampak tak permainan dia kat situ?

Pagi-pagi rush pergi kerja. Stuck dalam traffic, dah belajar maki hamun driver inconsiderate yang lain. Faker betul. Sampai office, bancuh kopi terus menghadap pc start buat kerja.

Nak ambil cuti pun berkira. Bilanya kau nak realisasikan impian kau nak travelling nye?

Umur pun makin meningkat. Biological clock pun mula lah bersuara.

Tengok baby orang, rasa nak baby sendiri. Tapi bergaduh berkonflik dalam diri sebab taknak kahwin lagi. Tapi kalau tak kahwin, macamana nak ada baby sendiri? Takkan la out of wedlock? Nauzubillah, mintak dijauhkan.

Tiba-tiba datang pula idea nak memajukan diri; yelah the quest for knowledge will never end until we die. Mulalah hasrat nak sambung belajar datang bertubi-tubi.

Dalam diri sendiri masih rasa muda remaja. Masih suka lompat sana sini, bergembira, gelak ketawa, throw head back and laugh and not a single fuck was given on that day.

Takut nak hadapi kenyataan bahawasanya masa muda remaja with not a care in the world akan beransur-ansur ditinggalkan.

Aku tau sebenarnya kita tak ada option lain selain daripada be brave, heads up and face whatever is coming into the life positively and accept it as a point to memajukan diri.

I sound childish when I say all of these things but who the hell cares? I just want to let this one out.


Life goes on. With or without you. So you choose whether to enjoy the ride or sulk in the corner and mope.

Penatnya grow up!