Salam Ramadhan

Wandering around social networking sites, swallowing everything you've been thinking of, silently wondering whether you're good enough to express it all out - that's me the awkward penguin in social networking sites. I end up babbling about random things in life - "Sejuknya aircond kat ofis.", "Berdebarnya nak presentation!" talking about the antics of my kitty - BUT I try really really really hard to avoid talking about other people. Be it their attitude or anything they do.

Some people, just couldn't, just really really couldn't stop from talking about others. Making snide remarks, or even commenting on whatever others do.

Which got me wondering; are we as good as we think we are? Or we only think we are good but others don't? Trying to look at ourselves from the outsider's perspectives. When I say outsiders what I meant is people who aren't really bosom buddies with us.

Which got me thinking later on; What if I am not that good of a person as I think I am, or as what my friends think I am? Am I really that bad of a person?

Which got me to expand my thoughts; So what do I do next? Conform to others' standards? Change, and try hard to appear as a good person? Or as a goody-goody person? Will I be liked as much by others if I change?

Of which I feel embarrassed by myself, for even having to think that way. That way of which succumbing to all other haters and what people may think of me if I behave in a certain way. To even dare to think of changing myself just to stop people from talking about me.

And for that I say; to hell with all of that. You cannot change just to please everyone. There will always be haters. People with full of hasad dengki. People with full of dissatisfaction in whatever it is you are doing. Why change? Change for Allah. Not just to prove to others you are better or whatnot. Change for Allah.

Change for Allah. Change for Allah. Change for Allah. Change for Allah.
and God Willing everything will be in place :)

Salam Ramadhan, have a blessed one, and may this be a productive journey for everyone ♥

p/s random thoughts on a lazy Sunday. Nothing to do with yours truly.

What I Really Hope For.

Happiness.

To always be happy.

Perempuan ini.

Perempuan ini memang saiko orangnya.
Sikit-sikit nak emo, sikit-sikit nak terasa.
Kadang-kadang macam roller coaster emosi dia.
Kejap tadi macam happy je, manja je,
Tiba-tiba merapu dah macam nenek kebayan minta penampar.

Perempuan ini banyak kelemahannya.
Dia tau dia tak sempurna,
Dia tau dia banyak kena perbaiki dirinya.
Dia tau semua tu. Tapi dia degil juga.
Ego tinggi melangit. Entah kenapa lah.

Tapi kan,

Perempuan ini lah juga yang kalau sayang, memang akan sayang sepenuh hatinya.
Kalau dah sayang, sedaya upaya dia cuba setia.

She feels bad when she gets all worked up on you for a simple thing.
Because you are the sweetest, the greatest, the most patient person she ever knew that love her.
That accepts her in every way she is.
Tapi dia pun tak tahu kenapa buat perangai tiba-tiba.
Mengada.
I love you, by the way.

#Apesal entah malam-malam ni merapu.

Memang macam ni la perangai yang kita suka.

Iaitu, update blog seribu tahun sekali. Kan Aleen kan?

Anyway, hai semua! *Baling telur baling kasut sebab dah lama gila tak update blog haha*

Life updates;

1) Dah berhenti dari menjadi TM CSR untuk Streamyx. Cukup lah experience for one month. Sangat berharga dan pengalaman tu susah nak dapat dari tempat lain. Cuma rasa tak fit je nak kerja shift. Heee.

2) Insyaallah, will begin to start work at a new place and new environment; and I hope for the best. Got recommended, but not sure when will get the placement. So daripada melangut baik aku pergi kerja lain dulu hehehe

3) Officially graduated!! Alhamdulillah =D

4) Going to be maid of honour for one of my closest cousins this May. Diorang intend untuk marketkan aku. Hahah ingat aku tak laku eh? Fine fine whatever you say~ Tak pernah ada experience jadi pengapit ni kang aku yang melebih kipas diri sendiri kang hahahaha

5) So far, I had the most awesome 5 months =D and counting it to be more awesome day by day!

See you later, alligator!

Still looking up.

Missing you. 

Random stuff 101

I cannot control myself, so here goes a bunch of random stuff that's going on in my mind~

1) The desk is too full with my stuff, but I'm a hoarder I think. Sayang nak buang barang-barang lama.

2) I really need to get that bookshelf bought last week mounted up on the wall soon! Pemalas nak drill dinding uhuk uhuk

3) I really want to take care of a baby. Baby as in little newborn babies. When they've all grown up and got their walking legs, I'll hand them back to their mums. Boleh tak macam tu?

4) Hmm, everybody's getting married. When is my turn? I've planned my dress mentally by the way bahahahaha

5) I really really want to go for an Eurotour. Greece, Venice and Paris. I will work hard to make this one dream come true, just wait =)

6) I wish I can teleport to you, every single time I thought of you :D

7) Elder generations should not think too negatively on younger generations. After all, they are the ones who shaped us and brought us up, correct?

8) Refer number 6.

9) Can't wait to have a permanent job! However, not everything that we want is good for us, no? [2:216]

10) Refer number 8 =)

Toodles~

One fine Saturday mornin'

Good day peeps! Wah gitew berpeeps peeps pulak aku ni kann haha

Cewah dah gaya macam southern Americans pulak aku bermornin' mornin' kannn =p Anyways new update! I am currently working as a CSR..Where? I won't tell you hehehe =D Setakat ni, ini la rezeki yang ade. While waiting for other better offers. 

Okay enough with talking crap. All these motivational stuff are seriously pulling my hair out. Enough with my philosophy and whatnots. Time to be vain today hee hee =)

Yeah, keep calm and carry on. Lek lek luuu~ 

Apa motif tunjuk calendar Subway aku pun tak faham -.-" Oh this means my supply of cheap Subway every month will always be there yahoooo! 

I am Gen Y and proud of it ;D Motif nak ulang balik ape yang dah tertulis aleen?HAHA

So ignore je lah muka tak semenggah tu yang penuh dengan jerawat. Stress la katakan hehe.

Have a happy weekend you all. I am enjoying mine immensely ;)

Aihh.

Semua dok wedding syndrome, pre-wedding syndrome ni. Payah la macam ni.
Sana sini kawan-kawan sebaya nak mendirikan masjid. Alhamdulillah.
Anak kawan-kawan parents pun sama.
Haaa, mula lah terangkat-angkat kening bagi hint dekat aku.

Tapi taknak aku kahwin lagi.
Tapi dok bagi hint.

Acane tu?

Notakaki: Aihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

At this Ungodly hour.

Dreams. 

They are the first steps to getting to your ambition. What matters is what steps you take after you dream. Work to pursue them, you'll get there God willing. Dream, and leave it hanging like just a dream, it will be only a dream. 

Get going. Get moving.

Leave some morphine at the door.

Source : tumblr.com - my source of calmness when trying to keep calm =)

69.Things I love

Finding someone who gives you butterflies each time he looks at you.

Just Because.

Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd get a bike for your birthday or if you'd get to eat cookies for breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. And if you're training to be a surgeon, holding a human heart in your hands, hello? Talk about responsibility. Kind of makes bikes and cookies look really, really good, doesn't it? The scariest part about responsibility? When you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers.
[Season 1 Ep. 5]


The early bird catches the worm; a stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to ‘seize the day'. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.
[Season 1 Ep. 6]


Superstition lies in the space between what we can control and what we can't. Find a penny, pick it up, and all day long you'll have good luck. No one wants to pass up a chance for good luck. But does saying it thirty three times really help? Is anyone really listening? And if no ones listening, why do we bother doing those strange things. We rely on superstitions because we're smart enough to know we don't have all the answers. And that life works in mysterious ways. Don't diss the juju, from wherever it comes.
[Season 2 Ep. 21]


Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy.

Sesi Psikologi bersama Dr Aleensie merangkap #30 Days Challenge Day 14

*ooopss, skip Day 13 =D

Day 14 - Who are you?

Hari ni ceq nak sembang pasal personaliti. Ceq main main dekat Facebook haritu, bosan punya pasal, try ah temperament quiz ni. Personality quiz ni ceq dah selalu buat dah, sebab ceq suka nak tau ceq punya personaliti ni macamana. Tanya kawan-kawan, semua pun bagi jawapan yang macam nak menjaga hati hahahaha. Nampak sangat personality ceq tak best pun hehe.

Sanguine. Biasa kalau buat quiz memang akan dapat jawapan camni so ceq anggap ini yang betul la mengenai diri ceq naa =p Mai ceq buat analisis sikit nak tengok betui dak dekat ceq.

1) If you are sanguine, you are most likely the life of the party. You are funny and relish the limelight. You are affectionate and enjoy social activities, and make friends easily.

Haa hat ni ceq beg to differ naa. Ceq tak rasa ceq the life of a party. Ceq biasanya suka dok diam memerhati dan termenung ja. Pastu ceq don't make friends easily. Ini memang sangat betul. Kena warm up, kena kenal dan jmpa dalam 3 4 kali baru reti nak manis-manis mulut. Kalau awai2 jumpak memang takdak aih ceq nak friendly. Ceq tak reti. I gave in to awkwardness more haha. Enjoy social activities tu mungkin la. Social activities dengan teman rapat aje udah le. 

2) Imaginative and creative?

Perghhhh muhong sangat aih. Sangat tak kreatif. Kreatif hat benda2 mengarut tu boleh lah. Imaginasi tinggi sampai menakutkan diri sendiri tu ade lah. Tapi kearah kebaikan tu cam takde je. Hahahaha

3) Vivacious, generous, light hearted.

Light hearted tu paling sesuai kot. Sikit-sikit gelak, sikit-sikit nak ketawa. Sikit-sikit cuba buat lawak walaupun fail whale haha. See, gelak lagi hahahaha (dan lagi).

4) Wear emotions on my sleeve, but are always quick to forgive and forget.

Ini sangat tepat! What I don't like, or I am not comfortable with, it quickly shows on my face. Dah la tak pandai menipu, asyik kantoiiiiiii je. Tak reti pulak tu nak cover emotions. Dangg aleen, I really need to improve on this hahaha. Tapi memang bener ye benerrr, ceq lambat marah, dan bila marah ceq cepatttttt ja sejuk. But, try and cross me la, and see what happens :P

5) Struggle with follow through, chronically late and tend to be forgetful

TEND TO BE FORGETFUL hahaha so true ! Sangat sangat pelupa. Even for my own stuff and matters pun perlu ada to-do list or notes to refer to. Itu pun tak cukup, kena ada sampai 2 3 kat tempat berlainan. Satu tulis atas post it kaler2 and tampal kat softboard, satu lagi save dalam handphone, satu lagi tulis dalam planner. Haha teruk teruk -.-"

6) Quick to discover new hobby and lose interest when it becomes less engaging and fun.

Selalu sangat kalau buat personality test dapat benda cmni. This one no comment. Ceq taktau yang ni boleh apply kat diri sendiri ke dak. 

Notakaki: Ambik masa berjam-jam untuk siapkan post ni. Hahaha melagha depan internet betul 

One step closer.

Doubts.
It's like cancer.
It's like a viral disease.
That can spin you out of control.

Fall,
Down, down and down
Into one sickness
You gasp and you try
To catch a breath
You can't.

Arms flailing
Legs kicking
Trying to grasp whatever
things that are within reach.

You can't even begin
to understand
what is happening.

Then you saw that smile.

Loss for words.

Seminggu hiatus. Well actually lebih dari seminggu yang blog ni betul-betul aku spend masa untuk menulis. Ceh menulis. Gaya macam la penulis sensasi ke apa je. At the moment I am just fresh from finishing my assignment, so kepala agak weng sebab tak tidur sepanjang malam. Biasa, memang biasa dah buat macam ni. I work well under pressure, tapi aku rasa aku kena kurangkan sikap procrastination ni lagi-lagi bila nak membina kerjaya. Ceh sekali lagi ayat macam nak kena baling pen tuju dahi -.-"

Isn't it funny when the person(s) who always chastised you for being judgemental, or proclaim that he never judge people, is in fact the one who is the most judgemental of them all? I find it really funny (in a sarcastic way) when this sort of thing happen. Rasa macam nak jump up and down and shout "In your face dude!! In your face!" sambil jari tunjuk-tunjuk. Haha ape kekdahnye ni aku pun taktau la perangai ni aleen haih -______-

Anyway, minggu depan mid semester break. Tapi aku tak rasa aku akan dapat break pun sebab akan sibuk gila buat assignment dan prepare untuk presentation. Takpe lah, lagi sebulan aku boleh nak rehat panjang-panjang. Yang 30 days challenge ni entah bila nak setel -.-"

Ok byes~

Wordless Wednesday #9

Chocolates. Peppermint chocolate. Sigh

I hope that you'll catch me, cause I'm already falling :)

It's already week 7 here in Monash and I'm already feeling the heat of assignments, presentations and revisions. Dangggg I really need to step up my game here or else I'll be doing last minute revision tsk tsk.

Anyway, I finally got the part-time job in Kumon, tutoring small kids in Maths and English :D In the beginning of this semester I decided to take up a part-time job just to occupy my very much free time due to only three subjects that I'm taking. I initially thought I would not get the job after the interview with the headmaster there, mainly because of two reasons, 1) She asked me whether or not I like kids and my answer is only "Kids? Hahaha. Bolehlahhh." And she raised her eyebrows in return. 2) Kumon wants me to commit for a minimum of one year and I'm already in my final semester which means I will start working, God willing, next year. 

Kids, kids, kids. It is not that I don't like them. But I don't know how to pamper them, manja-manja and talk babyish with them. I think that when I speak to kids, I tend to behave more like a teacher, a bit strict but in a loving way of course. Still, I cannot handle kids age 4-6 years old whom are naughty and a lil bit hyper than the rest of their peers. Lagi la kalau those kids kuat mencubit and memukul and annoying at times. Yeah sometimes I found them quite annoying. HAHA. Most of the time I just ignore them unless they came to me and talk to me nicely hehe *satu kriteria gadis idaman crossed off the list LOL*

I love babies more than kids. Yeaa, babies with their gurgles and chuckles and their baby smells. I can take care of babies better than kids. Oh my god don't you love their chubby cheeks and arms and legs? Kalau aku dah ada anak nanti aku nak pakaikan dia leggings comel-comel tu masa dia baby. Hehehe they are the cutest things on earth! Aside from the smurfs and cats and puppies, of course :D Kalau dengan babies reti laa nak cakap baby talk, it makes sense. 

Hm agak-agaknya nanti dah anak macam mana laaa? Can I handle my own kids? *tiba-tiba berbicara soal serious*

See, I'm wasting my time again and again! So for this month of September, I have two assignments due on the same week, well not much of a challenge, last semester lagi teruk kot. Haha berlagak kau ye Aleen, start assignment pun belum kan.

Ce tengok my planner for this September :) Takde la pack sangat kan, and there's the one week of mid semester break !

Two assignments due on the same week, Monday TV Studies assignment, Wednesday Marketing Law assignment. And whatttttttt, 19th they are already publishing the exams timetable?? Oh my this means I have so few weeks left here in Sunway awwww so sadddddddddd T_T

Lepas tu ce tengok planner for the month of October pulak;

October is not really that packed also. There's the International Business Strategy assignment due, and on the final week before Swot Vac there will be TV studies visual test in class, and the next day IBS presentation. Lepas tu Swot Vac! Swot Vac is actually Study without Teaching Vacation or Study Leave as we call it in Malaysia. Hah okay la tu, not bad for my final semester :P

Yeay! 5 weeks to go !! Not sure to be so happy or sad though.

Notakaki: You put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go. You put your arms around me and I'm home.

Dalam Dingin Subuh

Siapa kita hendak menolak ketentuan Tuhan?
Hati.
Raja yang penuh rahsia.
Hati juga;
mudah berbolak-balik.
Perumpamaan hati itu juga ibarat sehelai bulu terlekat di akar pohon, mudah bergerak-gerak kerana ditiup angin.

Silap perkiraan,
hati yang merajai fikiran.

Rancangan asal untuk tunggu dan lihat ada kemungkinan memakan diri.

This is bad, bro.

Singaporeans.

I decided to not do a Wordless Wednesday today. All for this post and two instances that left me wondering.

Although I try hard not to label people, to be judgmental, but sometimes I do end up in that place where I don't wanna be. Labelling people. This, that, stuck up, jerk, superficial, and the list goes on. Let us be realistic yea, as hard as we do not want to be judgmental, but I do think the saying "First Impression does Last" holds some water in some cases.

I have heard of countless comments on Singaporeans from fellow Malaysians. Probably countless comments back for Malaysians too. The heat is especially maximised during MAS vs SIN football match the other day. Ah tak payah nak demokratik sangat ah Aleen, let me just tell you what has been lingering in my mind since forever.

First instance;

I was sitting down in Putra LRT on the way to KLCC for the GLC Open Day. Somewhere at either Kg Baru station or Dang Wangi station, the door opened, and a man walked in. He stood in front of me and my cousin, and started talking to us;

"Hello, do you know the way to the Singapore Embassy? Which stop should I take? (cheh dah macam Rebecca Black Friday song pulak)"

"Em, I think you can stop at the Ampang Park station, and walk a bit all the way to the Tabung Haji building. The embassies are all near there."

And then the man decided to tell us what has happened to him earlier this morning. Some snatch-thieves snatched his bag, and his essentials are all in the bag. His passport, money, laptop, clothes, pretty much everything important. He then went to make a police report and was told to go to the Singapore Embassy with some directions drawn on a paper probably by the police who took his report. He was even given some money for the fare, as he has not enough money at all.

He then went on to complain about Malaysians, much to the annoyance of us. I understood that he was probably very much upset by what has happened, and he could not enjoy his stay in Malaysia as he lost most of his money and clothes too. To our disappointment, he went on to say that Malaysians are incompetent, lazy, so on so forth. He even dared to comment on the LRT that he was riding, saying that MRT in Singapore is even better than ours.

Second instance;

I am currently taking one elective subject from the School of Arts, doing Contemporary Television Studies. My tutorial contains a substantial number of Singaporeans, and one particular girl with hijab caught my attention. She is particularly friendly with other people, so I figured, why don't I make friends with her? So whenever I see her, I smiled at her. Sadly, yes SADLY, she does not return my smiles, (which is quite rare, yes, because of my sombong face.) Kinda sad la jugak because I've been hoping to make friends with other Muslim girls from other countries too.

So these two instances left me wondering whether is it true that people that hails from the land of Lion are really kiasu? And do they really look down on Malaysians, as we are not as advanced, economically, technologically, as them?

Uncle, why did you really need to talk so rudely to us after you've asked for directions? You really know that you were talking to Malaysians, didn't you? I know you are upset and everything, but still, those comments aren't called for. Yeah I know you people probably have the fastest MRT in the whole wide world *rolling eyes* but maybe you lack something, like politeness maybe?

And my dear classmate, whyyyy la is it so hard for you to smile back at me? Is it because I wear not fancy shawls as you and just tudung bawal so I eez not as fashionable as you (Ok this is an inside joke)?  Is it because I eez not as intelligent as you Singaporeans (but I caught you staring at me when I opened my mouth in class just now). I so sad you know you don't smile at me. I so sad I think you don't like me you know.

Anddddd you snatch thieves!! Haih. Mencemarkan nama negara.

Hahaha. Yeah whatever.

Notakaki: What came into your mind when you first read this post's title? Hehe

Demam EPL.

Ok hari ni sedikit vain. Eh bukan sedikit tapi banyakkkk.

Kemon la Chelsea !