Saturday, April 14, 2012

What I Really Hope For.

Happiness.

To always be happy.

Perempuan ini.

Perempuan ini memang saiko orangnya.
Sikit-sikit nak emo, sikit-sikit nak terasa.
Kadang-kadang macam roller coaster emosi dia.
Kejap tadi macam happy je, manja je,
Tiba-tiba merapu dah macam nenek kebayan minta penampar.

Perempuan ini banyak kelemahannya.
Dia tau dia tak sempurna,
Dia tau dia banyak kena perbaiki dirinya.
Dia tau semua tu. Tapi dia degil juga.
Ego tinggi melangit. Entah kenapa lah.

Tapi kan,

Perempuan ini lah juga yang kalau sayang, memang akan sayang sepenuh hatinya.
Kalau dah sayang, sedaya upaya dia cuba setia.

She feels bad when she gets all worked up on you for a simple thing.
Because you are the sweetest, the greatest, the most patient person she ever knew that love her.
That accepts her in every way she is.
Tapi dia pun tak tahu kenapa buat perangai tiba-tiba.
Mengada.
I love you, by the way.

#Apesal entah malam-malam ni merapu.

Home and pampered.

10 years living out of home. 10 years I got my own space. And now after graduation I went back to my home and currently resides there. Selalunya kids lepas dah graduate they will have to move out to get their own place and stuff. Tapi aku? stuck inside the parents home sebab aku kerja kat KL. Kerja KL means that I cannot get my own place coz my mum won't let me. She said, "Cukup la 10 tahun duduk di luar." My dad doesn't share her views though.

As for me? I would love to get my own place. Sebab if I am being honest here, memang lah seronok duduk di rumah, sewa tak payah bayar. Cuma hulur duit sikit-sikit je. But my only space that I got is my own room. Tu pun kadang-kadang susah nak dapat privacy. Right now, I feel a bit suffocated staying at home. Let me lay out the reasons;

1) Aku suka keluar. Suka pergi berjalan sana sini. But then mum will complain, asyik keluar je, tak lekat kat rumah. Sorry la ma, I am not like every other "anak dara" that will stay at home. I will get friggingly freakingly super ultimately bored to the point that I feel frustrated kalau duduk melangut je kat rumah.

2) When I'm at home, I need my own space. I close the door when I need space. I open it when I don't anymore. Tapi people at home tak faham. They think they can barge in anytime. Kadang-kadang kita letih nak bercakap dengan orang, so kita nak duduk dalam bilik sorang-sorang kejap. Tapi tak dapat. Argh so frustrating when that happens!

3) Bila kita duduk sendiri, kita tau lah macamana nak urus rumah. Bila nak basuh, lipat, sidai, sapu, mop etc etc. I'll make sure to get it done even by myself. Tapi bila duduk kat rumah, lain rentaknya. I have to be one step earlier than the bosses to do all those stuff without being told to macam budak kecik. I guess I am still their little girl.

I am not complaining about my parents. No, they are the super awesome parents one could get. I thank Allah for I was born as their child. BUT sometimes I need space. That is all I need. And plus, staying at home doesn't help me to alleviate my laziness. I become more pampered and thus kurang sikit la inisiatif nak berdikarinya. Macam mana nak berlatih jadi isteri orang u tell me?

Tapi kalau duduk luar, lain la pulak masalahnye. Belanja semua sendiri urus; sewa rumah, makan minum etc etc you have to do it your ownself. But the perk is I got my own space. I can do whatever I want with boundaries and limits in mind lah.

Aaaa. How la?

Monday, April 9, 2012

Memang macam ni la perangai yang kita suka.

Iaitu, update blog seribu tahun sekali. Kan Aleen kan?

Anyway, hai semua! *Baling telur baling kasut sebab dah lama gila tak update blog haha*

Life updates;

1) Dah berhenti dari menjadi TM CSR untuk Streamyx. Cukup lah experience for one month. Sangat berharga dan pengalaman tu susah nak dapat dari tempat lain. Cuma rasa tak fit je nak kerja shift. Heee.

2) Insyaallah, will begin to start work at a new place and new environment; and I hope for the best. Got recommended, but not sure when will get the placement. So daripada melangut baik aku pergi kerja lain dulu hehehe

3) Officially graduated!! Alhamdulillah =D


4) Going to be maid of honour for one of my closest cousins this May. Diorang intend untuk marketkan aku. Hahah ingat aku tak laku eh? Fine fine whatever you say~ Tak pernah ada experience jadi pengapit ni kang aku yang melebih kipas diri sendiri kang hahahaha

5) So far, I had the most awesome 5 months =D and counting it to be more awesome day by day!

See you later, alligator!