Salam Ramadhan

Wandering around social networking sites, swallowing everything you've been thinking of, silently wondering whether you're good enough to express it all out - that's me the awkward penguin in social networking sites. I end up babbling about random things in life - "Sejuknya aircond kat ofis.", "Berdebarnya nak presentation!" talking about the antics of my kitty - BUT I try really really really hard to avoid talking about other people. Be it their attitude or anything they do.

Some people, just couldn't, just really really couldn't stop from talking about others. Making snide remarks, or even commenting on whatever others do.

Which got me wondering; are we as good as we think we are? Or we only think we are good but others don't? Trying to look at ourselves from the outsider's perspectives. When I say outsiders what I meant is people who aren't really bosom buddies with us.

Which got me thinking later on; What if I am not that good of a person as I think I am, or as what my friends think I am? Am I really that bad of a person?

Which got me to expand my thoughts; So what do I do next? Conform to others' standards? Change, and try hard to appear as a good person? Or as a goody-goody person? Will I be liked as much by others if I change?

Of which I feel embarrassed by myself, for even having to think that way. That way of which succumbing to all other haters and what people may think of me if I behave in a certain way. To even dare to think of changing myself just to stop people from talking about me.

And for that I say; to hell with all of that. You cannot change just to please everyone. There will always be haters. People with full of hasad dengki. People with full of dissatisfaction in whatever it is you are doing. Why change? Change for Allah. Not just to prove to others you are better or whatnot. Change for Allah.

Change for Allah. Change for Allah. Change for Allah. Change for Allah.
and God Willing everything will be in place :)

Salam Ramadhan, have a blessed one, and may this be a productive journey for everyone ♥

p/s random thoughts on a lazy Sunday. Nothing to do with yours truly.

Manusia.

Aku rasa sifat sentiasa tak berpuas hati tu ada dalam diri manusia. Semua tak puas hati. Lagi-lagi kalau berkait dengan manusia lain. Entah kenapa dengan manusia lain yang tak pernah kacau hidup dia pun rasa nak mendengki dan tak berpuas hati. Entah kenapa. Kenapa entah?

Teori aku satu je. Rasa insecure dan tak ada self confidence. Kalau tak ada self confidence je, tak apa. Boleh sorang-sorang tenung diri sendiri depan cermin dan mengeluh hari-hari. Kalau insecure gabung dengan no self confidence, memang parah jadinya. You know why? Pasal kita akan sentiasa cuba bandingkan diri sendiri dengan orang lain dan mula rasa macam tak puas hati semacam. Padahal orang tu tak pernahhhhhh pun cari pasal dengan kita. Well, these things happen. Especially in girls/women/ladies/females world.

Tell me about it. 

Aku rasa kesian sebenarnya dekat orang-orang macam ni. Kesian, patetik. Buang masa, buang tenaga. Lainla kalau orang yang didengki tu ada buat salah terang-terangan kat kita ni. Orang tu tak kacau hidup kita, kita tak perlu la buat cerita sengaja-sengaja tak puas hati entah apa2 kat dia. Pathetic sangat nampaknya kita ni.

Why obsess nak bercerita pasal orang tu sedangkan dia sikit pun tak tau yang kita dengki sangat-sangat kat dia. Come on, jangan stereotype people please.

Paling penting, jangan kuat mengata orang. Lambat laun the word will come around and you'll have to swallow what you chew.

Remember, karma is a bitch. Only if you are.

p/s : i need to stop using the tag "lama sungguh tak update" on my posts. sebab memang lama sungguh tak update so no need mentioning. kan? :p

Home and pampered.

10 years living out of home. 10 years I got my own space. And now after graduation I went back to my home and currently resides there. Selalunya kids lepas dah graduate they will have to move out to get their own place and stuff. Tapi aku? stuck inside the parents home sebab aku kerja kat KL. Kerja KL means that I cannot get my own place coz my mum won't let me. She said, "Cukup la 10 tahun duduk di luar." My dad doesn't share her views though.

As for me? I would love to get my own place. Sebab if I am being honest here, memang lah seronok duduk di rumah, sewa tak payah bayar. Cuma hulur duit sikit-sikit je. But my only space that I got is my own room. Tu pun kadang-kadang susah nak dapat privacy. Right now, I feel a bit suffocated staying at home. Let me lay out the reasons;

1) Aku suka keluar. Suka pergi berjalan sana sini. But then mum will complain, asyik keluar je, tak lekat kat rumah. Sorry la ma, I am not like every other "anak dara" that will stay at home. I will get friggingly freakingly super ultimately bored to the point that I feel frustrated kalau duduk melangut je kat rumah.

2) When I'm at home, I need my own space. I close the door when I need space. I open it when I don't anymore. Tapi people at home tak faham. They think they can barge in anytime. Kadang-kadang kita letih nak bercakap dengan orang, so kita nak duduk dalam bilik sorang-sorang kejap. Tapi tak dapat. Argh so frustrating when that happens!

3) Bila kita duduk sendiri, kita tau lah macamana nak urus rumah. Bila nak basuh, lipat, sidai, sapu, mop etc etc. I'll make sure to get it done even by myself. Tapi bila duduk kat rumah, lain rentaknya. I have to be one step earlier than the bosses to do all those stuff without being told to macam budak kecik. I guess I am still their little girl.

I am not complaining about my parents. No, they are the super awesome parents one could get. I thank Allah for I was born as their child. BUT sometimes I need space. That is all I need. And plus, staying at home doesn't help me to alleviate my laziness. I become more pampered and thus kurang sikit la inisiatif nak berdikarinya. Macam mana nak berlatih jadi isteri orang u tell me?

Tapi kalau duduk luar, lain la pulak masalahnye. Belanja semua sendiri urus; sewa rumah, makan minum etc etc you have to do it your ownself. But the perk is I got my own space. I can do whatever I want with boundaries and limits in mind lah.

Aaaa. How la?

Disember: Bulan Mengenang dan Meresolusi

Jadi. Disember datang lagi. Dan kini ia semakin menghilang. Bak kata Travie McCoy, "Now December's almost gone." Aku suka bulan Disember ni. Pada aku ia sangat sempurna untuk dijadikan tapak memulakan kenangan nostalgia. Mengingat kembali kedudukan aku setahun lepas, Disember lepas, dan mengukur sendiri sejauh mana peningkatan diri; pada aku sedikit peningkatan pun dah cukup bermakna. An optimistic's view: A half-full glass is better than an empty one =)

Tahun 2011. Tahun yang penuh dengan kegembiraan. Tahun revenge. Tahun kebebasan sepenuhnya untuk aku. 

Sebab apa aku cakap revenge? Sebab tahun 2010 bukan tahun aku. Terlalu banyak kekecewaan dalam tahun 2010. Jadi aku buat resolusi dan tanamkan bulat-bulat dalam diri aku yang tahun 2011 akan bawa berita gembira. Kiranya macam revenge balik la dekat tahun 2010 tu. Haha. 

Alhamdulillah, segala yang aku rancangkan hampir semua aku berjaya capai/buat. Rancangan nak tamat belajar tahun ni jugak, berjaya. Rancangan nak go backpacking dengan kawan-kawan, berjaya. Paling penting, rancangan nak bergembira tahun ini, sangat sangat berjaya. I fall in love and I didn't even plan for it to happen this year either, but I'm happy with it =)

Cuma ada satu je masalah: Aku belum berjaya minum air soya. Pfftttt

Tahun 2012; Mohon Allah permudahkan segala urusan dan tunjukkan yang terbaik untuk aku. No special plans, tahun 2012 aku ikut sahaja ke mana langkah yang aku rasa terbaik untukku. InsyaAllah.

Selamat tahun baru 2012, tolonglah kurangkan menjadi judgemental bila orang lain ucapkan selamat tahun baru kepada anda. Peace!

Leave some morphine at the door.

Source : tumblr.com - my source of calmness when trying to keep calm =)

Being Optimistic is Not Putting False Hopes.

Right now aku tengah menunggu panggilan telefon yang pada aku penting. Penting sebab aku agak berharap untuk berjaya disitu. Dia kata by minggu ni akan dapat jawapan. Tapi setelah hari berganti hari, sampai lah ke hari Jumaat ni, aku rasa harapan tu sedikit-sedikit makin luruh lah. Tak kisah lah, apa pun yang jadi, I'll take it as a one whole new experience =)

Macam masa aku mengajar kat KUMON, aku perasan ramai students aku yang tak yakin dengan diri sendiri. Masa aku tanda worksheet diorang, kalau ada salah satu, then diorang akan straight away untuk soalan-soalan lepas tu mesti cakap, "Mesti salah..salah punya ni..salah..salah.." Why so pessimist when you are at such a young age?

Pada aku, menjadi optimistik itu tak pernah meletakkan harapan yang palsu. Even if your hope is destroyed at the end of the day, you still have had something to hold on to in the beginning. At least you've got something, rather than nothing. Itulah antara kelebihan seorang Muslim, yang mana kita percaya kepada Qada' dan Qadar serta rezeki itu datangnya daripada Allah. Kalau harapan kita termusnah, nak buat macamana kan, bukan rezeki. Mungkin ada sebab dan musabab sesuatu tu berlaku. 

Yang kita boleh buat hanyalah berdoa banyak-banyak dan berusaha sesungguh-sungguh. Paling kurang pun aku takkan rasa ralat kalau tak ada rezeki pun. Sebab aku dah cuba yang terbaik, dan mungkin bukan rezeki aku kali ni. Ayat klise memujuk diri, but aku rasa klise itu sentiasa ada half of the truth. 

Sejak akhir-akhir ni aku asyik bercakap pasal benda-benda bermotivasi kan. Semuanya adalah dengan intention untuk memujuk diri dan juga bersedia untuk bad news. C'mon lah aleen, still got a long way to go. Lepas belajar for 15 tahun lebih kurang, takkan lah nak give up halfway? And I am not even halfway, masih berada di petak permulaan so to speak.

Maka dengan ini aku pun akhiri post kali ni dengan sepatah ayat, "Nak pergi mandi sambil letak phone kat tepi dinding bilik air." Kehkeh =p

A Quick Update

Dangg kebusy-an sepanjang tempoh menganggur ni membuatkan aku tak rasa macam aku menganggur pun. Memang tengah job hunting, but dek kerana keterlibatan dengan pelbagai aktiviti dan juga kerja part-time, baru sempat pegi 2 interviews je. I really really wanna get a job fast so that takde la aku duduk goyang kaki tak tau nak buat apa dengan hidup. I really dislike uncertainties, but in my field, uncertainties always happen and that I should take it as a challenge and tackle it step by step. Meaning that I should have a plan, contingency plan. Tapiiiiii setakat ni aku cuma hidup week by week basis je. Belum ada perancangan masa depan yang panjang. Sebabkan belum pasti what is in store for me in the future. Hence I leave it to Allah cos He knows best =)

Weekend kelmarin pergi a family gathering kat AFamosa Resort. Homaigod best gila gather dengan your close cousins, exchanging news about each other. Semua dah besar-besar, tinggal sekarang masa little cousins pulak. My generation, anak-anak Paklong, Makngah, semua dah almost finishing high school or in college/university. Best sebab I get to have real fun with my brother and sister selepas sekian lama tak bermain sungguh-sungguh. Sometimes a quick getaway like this is what you need most when you feel suffocated with the reality :P

Balik dari gathering, on the way home, I received SMS from Monash regarding my exam results. And I felt like crying in the car for I passed! I passed my degree! I can't even have enough words to describe my feelings right now. Yea you might think hek eleh pass exam pass degree je pun, kecah. But for me it is a big deal. All Mama and Abah's sacrifices, work, money and everything has come to this. To my finally graduating with a degree. Last 3-4 years I faced a major obstacle, one true demotivating factor that almost caused me to give up. I was really in a dark hole, dark place at that time. So when I get to finish my degree with satisfying results, let me celebrate. Let me have my moment. Savvy? Hehe =)

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I'm looking at an angel, and believe me when I say she got that whole place glowing =)

Things are changing, I am too =)

As of 1st November 2011, I ended my life as a student, and will leave the books and studies behind, for a long time to come. Alhamdulillah and I hope that I successfully pass my exams with colours that fly off the wall *ok exaggerate*

Anyway, dah lama gila biar blog ni dormant. Biasa lettew, aku kan. Kehkehkeh. Busy study la uolss tak sempat mak nak hapdet hokay. Uolls janganlah marah mak, kelas giteww hak tuiii :P Ingatkan dah habis belajar ni boleh la nak relax, rupa-rupanya there are so many things to do! Truth is, I was so busy doing stuff that I keep on putting off updating this blog. Bukan apa noks, mak kan, kena ada environment yang sesuai nak taip-taip ni uolls. Ni kalau time menaip ada orang terjenguk-jenguk intai-intai, rasa nak cepuk pun ada. HAHAHA =) Gurau je ye sayang oi :P

I am currently trying to figure out what I wanna do with my life. When I finally finished my studies, and completed my final paper the other day, there is some profound relief that washed over me. But at the same time I also feel quite lost, as in I am not certain of what I will be looking at in the future. However, I always say this to myself when I am feeling uncertain;

"It's either to do what you love and be good with it, or do what you need to do and excel in it. Same results anyway."

Your choice. I repeat, your OWN choice. I mean, if I keep on complaining about hard times, hard subjects, personal problems, and don't try to adapt to the situation and change things so that instead of turning against me, they are WITH me then I guess it won't solve the problem. I try bitch about my problems for a while, and then try and face them, without any more complaining. 

Wah macam kaunseling gitewww aku nih.

Thing is, aku pegang kepada kata-kata orang bijaksana yang mengatakan bahawa, "Hidup mesti ada matlamat, dan bukan bergantung kepada luck and chance semata-mata." But right now aku takde letak any specific goal for my future. On a further note however, the only thing that is constant is change. Meaning that change will always happen. Maka aku harus tak perlu rigid sangat dengan plan hidup, okay aleensie? =)

Notakaki : Expect the best out of yourself, and demand nothing but the best from yourself.

Cerita Tentang Sang Kancil

Haritu aku tolong abah hantar karpet dekat Puchong. Pakai Kancil.
Elok-elok je aku sampai Tropicana dari Sunway, terus hujan lebat. Aku tak peduli lagi, teruskan pergi ambik karpet bawak masuk dalam Kancil. Drive keluar dari laundry, semakin lama aku semakin perasan yang visibility cermin depan makin kurang.
"Hujan lebat ni lebat sungguh, macam dah berkabus kat luar ni." bisik hati kecilku. HAHAHAHAH kau ingat kau tulis novel ke aleenn?

Aku on wiper, wipe wipe cermin depan, tak berubah pun degree kekabusan dia. Aku makin risau, sebab makin lama makin susah nak tengok jalan. Last-last aku try sapu cermin dari dalam. RUPA-RUPANYA BERKABUS DARI DALAM!

"Sah la aircond dah habis gas niiiii. Macamana ni macamana niiiii." aku dah kalut seperti biasa. Tapi abah takde kat laundry, so aku tak boleh nak buat apa-apa, terpaksa lah maintain macho. Sambil drive, sambil tangan sapu-sapu cermin depan. Sedih dan kelakar semua at the same time. Haha

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Meh la aku cerita serba sedikit pasal Sang Kancil. Abah beli as second hand, lepas tu abah bagi aku guna lepas dapat lesen.

Sang Kancil sangat old school punya kancil. Bukan yang edition baru-baru. Plat number pun WDX lagi. Lamaaaaaa tuh.

Aku kadang-kadang segan nak bagi orang naik kereta aku. Bukan apa, dah la tak tinted, aircond pun tak kuat, kereta lama pulak tu. Kesian diorang panas-panas peluh-peluh naik Sang Kancil dengan aku. Diorang punya kereta hebat-hebat. Hehe. Kesian kalau kawan-kawan datang KL, aku bawak diorang jalan-jalan dengan Sang Kancil yang antik tu. Berpanas-panas laa diorang dalam Sang Kancil. Kesian aku tengok. Berkipas-kipas, berpeluh-peluh. Lagi-lagi KL jem, and memang panas nak mamps.

Ada sekali tu aku accidentkan Sang Kancil depan Ikea. Agaknya dia merajuk kot sebab aku baru ambik dia lepas service, dan aku sembang-sembang dengan kawan aku pasal kalau kereta baru maintenance pun tak banyak macam nak maintain kereta lama macam Sang Kancil ni. 3 4 jam lepas tu, aku crash kereta orang lain tanpa apparent reason. Aku rasa macam Sang Kancil mogok. Aku tekan brek tak rasa macam brek pun. Meluncur je macam tu. Hujan pun tak.

Since that aku tak sebut pun lagi pasal nak kereta baru. Time aku tengah drive Sang Kancil je la haha.

Aku bawak Sang Kancil pergi Hutan Lipur Kanching, picnic retreat dengan kawan-kawan la kononnya. Parking kat designated parking spot lah. Bayar dah la mahal, tah pape. Anyways, bila kami balik dari piknik dan pergi ke Sang Kancil, alangkah terkejutnya aku bila aku tengok visor belah kanan dah dicabut oleh Sang Monyet. %$%^&&*^*^(^& punya monyet. Nama pun binatang, perangai memang la macam tu.

Sedih aku tengok Sang Kancil diperlakukan sebegitu.

Dengan bekas-bekas roadtax masih melekat dekat cermin depan. Dengan calar balar karat semua.

Aku rasa aku selalu didiskriminasi oleh pakgad pakgad dekat Sunway ni. Ye lah, kancil aku antik, kereta diorang Honda Toyota Myvi bagai. Aku nak park kat situ tak boleh, orang lain boleh je. Takpelah. Aku sedar aku ni siapa. Kikikiki

Sang Kancil, seantik-antik dia pun, dia la yang sangat banyak berjasa dekat aku. Eh bukan dekat aku je, dekat family aku jugak. Masa Persona mama ada electronic problem, yang tukang tunda dekat highway siapa? Sang Kancil jugak. Gagah perkasa kot. Hellooooo *flips hair*

Sepanas-panas dia pun, dengan serba kekurangan Sang Kancil tu pun, aku sangat bersyukur sebab aku masih boleh bergerak ke mana-mana dengan senang. Aku masih boleh tolong abah hantar karpet. Aku masih boleh bawa kawan-kawan aku berjalan-jalan. Aku masih boleh pergi Kumon. Aku masih boleh berulang alik Sunway-Rawang masa weekend tanpa menyusahkan abah untuk ambik aku kat Sunway ni.

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Jadinya, biarlah Sang Kancil berkhidmat setia dengan aku selagi dia mampu. Banyak kenangan, banyak jasa, banyak nostalgia dia dengan aku. 

p/s aku rasa aku nak bercinta dengan Sang Kancil je lah. Dia meragam je, aku letak luar rumah. Takde hal :P

Sekali sekala tak update apa salahnya.

Sejak akhir-akhir ni malas sungguh nak update blog. Bukan sebab sibuk sangat dengan pelajaran (cheh) tapi sebab sibuk dengan keluar bersosial dengan kawan-kawan. Hello, bersosial bukan bersosial as in pergi clubbing macam tu ok. Bersosial yang mana kita memenuhi jemputan dan undangan-undangan beraya di rumah dan juga berjalan-jalan di rumah kedua iaitu Sunway Pyramid :DD teeheehee. Psst psst, actually nye kan, post yang pasal 30 days challenge yang terbaru ni pun dah lama peram dalam draft. Tinggal publish je hewhewhew =)

Kenapa lah lecturer-lecturer sem ni baik hati sangat sampai bagi extensions untuk assignment yang sepatutnya due minggu depan ada 2? Hahaha macam tak bersyukur tapi sebenarnya terlalu terlalu sangat amat amat free sampaikan rasa macam duduk Sunway sekadar untuk pergi kelas je. Penangan final semester yang tinggal 3 minggu sahaja lagi. 3 minggu okay, sungguh lah sedih nak tinggalkan zaman belajar. Kawan-kawan ku, korang taknak ke pegi tangkap-tangkap gambar dengan piknik-piknik macam kita plan dulu tu? Dah nak menghampiri penghujung sem niiii ;( Lepas ni bukan senang nak lepak sama-sama mengarut-mengarut gossip-gossip dahhh

Last week kawan-kawan Monash datang la ke Rawang untuk beraya di rumah :) Terima kasih la korang ye sebab jauh-jauh datang hehe; Riuh jugak lah rumah tu sebab bila semua berkumpul, main kad pulak lepas tu. Kecoh jadinya. 

Tengah melepak dan bergossip sambil makan kuih raya haha

Some of the girls yang datang :)

Lepas tu hari Selasa pulak kitorang pergi beraya ke rumah Atie dan Yussamir. Atie masak sup ayam dia yang famous tu, kena dengan sambal kicap, pergh! Haha wa yang tak tahan pedas ni pun buat buat tahan broo :D Thank you Atie sebab susah payah masakkan untuk kitorang hehehe 

Atie tengah bahagia sekarang ;) Hehe semoga Allah permudahkan urusan Atie sekeluarga lepas ni k baby :D

Semalam pulak pergi beraya dekat rumah schoolmate dekat Cheras, Laiqha. Dari awal haritu lagi dia asyik ajak pegi rumah dia, sekarang baru sampai. Hehe berkesempatan jugak la jumpa dengan Ruby dari UPSI dan Ateh. 

Well that explains kenapa lately gambar-gambar aku dekat FB dengan blog asyik berbaju kurung je. Haha sebab sakan beraya. Gambar-gambar adalah belas ihsan Sarah, Copia dengan Ruby :D 

Ok saya berazam lepas ni saya akan rajin update ok! 30 Days challenge tu tak setel-setel lagi ni. Hehe till then, toodles!

#30 Days Challenge - Day 12

A photo of something that makes you happy

*Godek godek folder gambar dalam pc*

Sorry lah uolls semenjak dua menjak ni asyik post gambar raya je. Apa nak buat raya kan sebulan hiks :D

Yang berbaju pink tu of course lah aku. Yang baju biru tu adik bongsu aku. Nama dia Durah Jasmin. Umur 16 tahun, sekarang tengah belajar dekat Sekolah Sains Seri Puteri, Jalan Kolam Ayer (SESERI). She previously was a national gymnast, based dekat Sekolah Sukan Bukit Jalil. 

Dulu masa dia belajar dekat SSBJ, every weekend dia boleh balik. Now dekat Seseri, sebulan sekali je boleh. So sekarang ni agak rasa lonely lah bila balik rumah time weekend, sebab si mulut kepoh ni tak balik. Kalau dia balik memang riuh rumah jadinya. Dengan si kepoh ni je la aku boleh turn on kan kegilaan aku ke tahap extreme. Kadang-kadang tu aku yang lebih hyper lebih gila dari si kepoh ni. 

She's very protective of her sister ni you know. Kalau dia nampak aku pegang baby, peluk-peluk baby, cium-cium gomol baby tuh, mesti dia merajuk punya lah. Pernah sekali dia tak keluar kereta sebab dia tau nak pergi kat rumah sedara aku yang ada baby. Punya lah jeles. Tarik muncung kalah itik serati agaknya. Boleh ikat buat tambat bot kot. Hahahaha :D Mana taknya, sampai sekarang pun, dah umur 16 tahun tinggi nak dekat sama dengan aku pun bila jalan-jalan mesti nak pegang tangan aku. Ha part ni yang paling aku touching sekali lah. Dah besar panjang pun, she's still my baby sister. Yang aku dukung dulu-dulu, buai kan, cium-cium gomol masa dia baby tu, dia jugak lah.

She is very multi-talented. Semua dia boleh buat. Sports, you name it. Menari, modern boleh traditional pun boleh. Debate, syarahan semua nak join. Nickname dia dalam family is Gila Kuasa. Haha. Senang buat kawan, very much opposite dengan aku. Kelakar bila aku ingat balik masa aku tengah interview EduCamp Petronas tu, aku boleh cerita banyak pulak pasal dia ni. Sampaikan interviewer tu interject dan tanya aku taknak cerita pasal diri sendiri ke.

Masa dia tengah mencapai kegemilangan dia sebagai seorang gymnast, aku mesti tak miss competition dia. Masa SUKMA dekat Terengganu, aku yang semangat gila pakai baju KL, bawak bendera KL, dok kibar sorang-sorang masa dia masuk carpet. Kebanggaan aku kat si kepoh ni memang tahap tinggi la.

Macam tak fair pulak kalau tak cerita pasal adik yang seorang lagi kan. Kejap nak godek album lagi.

Gambar raya lagi. Hehe tak peduli okbai zzz

Yang tengah sekali tu, Abu Zaki namanya. Adik nombor dua, umur 19tahun. Dia sangat pendiam, tapi diam-diam ubi berisi orangnya. Ha ini la kumbang di antara bunga adik beradik hewhewhew :D Anak manja mama, maklumlah anak lelaki sorang jeww *jeles* Haha dulu-dulu kan masa dia baru lahir aku marah betul sebab aku nak adik perempuan :P Tapi lama-lama lepas tengok dia ni chubby tembam gila, terus rasa sayang dan protective.
Dah tinggi gilaaaa dia ni. Kalau jalan sebelah dia macam pakwe makwe dah haha. Ini la kawan yang teman main basikal masa kecik-kecik dulu, teman kena kejar anjing.

So sorry la tak dapat nak bagi satu gambar je as per request. Tapi just nak habaq la kata ni la dua orang penyeri rumah kat Rawang tu ha. Lagi-lagi sekarang semua dah tak duduk menetap kat rumah. Sorang kat Sunway, sorang lagi kat Bangi, sorang lagi kat SBP. Bila weekend, memang aku look forward la nak balik rumah sebab nak jumpa budak dua orang ni.

Air dicincang takkan putus. To my dearie brother and sister, I wish you all the very best in whatever it is you guys are doing :D Love you lots xoxoxo, gossip girl *ttbe*

Spontaneous Thursday - Rindu. Mati.

Hari ini mood aku agak melankolik. Rasa serabut je kepala otak. Semua lepas habiskan buku The Last Song tulisan Nicholas Sparks. Sedih sampai bergenang air mata aku. Macam tu baru lah cerita bukan tipikal bukan chiclit. Although memang ada selitkan cerita cinta, tapi cerita dia berkisar tentang hubungan anak perempuan dengan ayahnya.

Sejak akhir-akhir ini aku senang annoyed. Mungkin aku hanya bersikap defensif, mungkin juga aku betul-betul annoyed. Senang cerita bila annoyed, diamkan diri je lah. Disappear.

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Rindu. Sangat sangat.

p/s tembam jugak pipi aku dulu-dulu.

I hope that you'll catch me, cause I'm already falling :)

It's already week 7 here in Monash and I'm already feeling the heat of assignments, presentations and revisions. Dangggg I really need to step up my game here or else I'll be doing last minute revision tsk tsk.

Anyway, I finally got the part-time job in Kumon, tutoring small kids in Maths and English :D In the beginning of this semester I decided to take up a part-time job just to occupy my very much free time due to only three subjects that I'm taking. I initially thought I would not get the job after the interview with the headmaster there, mainly because of two reasons, 1) She asked me whether or not I like kids and my answer is only "Kids? Hahaha. Bolehlahhh." And she raised her eyebrows in return. 2) Kumon wants me to commit for a minimum of one year and I'm already in my final semester which means I will start working, God willing, next year. 

Kids, kids, kids. It is not that I don't like them. But I don't know how to pamper them, manja-manja and talk babyish with them. I think that when I speak to kids, I tend to behave more like a teacher, a bit strict but in a loving way of course. Still, I cannot handle kids age 4-6 years old whom are naughty and a lil bit hyper than the rest of their peers. Lagi la kalau those kids kuat mencubit and memukul and annoying at times. Yeah sometimes I found them quite annoying. HAHA. Most of the time I just ignore them unless they came to me and talk to me nicely hehe *satu kriteria gadis idaman crossed off the list LOL*

I love babies more than kids. Yeaa, babies with their gurgles and chuckles and their baby smells. I can take care of babies better than kids. Oh my god don't you love their chubby cheeks and arms and legs? Kalau aku dah ada anak nanti aku nak pakaikan dia leggings comel-comel tu masa dia baby. Hehehe they are the cutest things on earth! Aside from the smurfs and cats and puppies, of course :D Kalau dengan babies reti laa nak cakap baby talk, it makes sense. 

Hm agak-agaknya nanti dah anak macam mana laaa? Can I handle my own kids? *tiba-tiba berbicara soal serious*

See, I'm wasting my time again and again! So for this month of September, I have two assignments due on the same week, well not much of a challenge, last semester lagi teruk kot. Haha berlagak kau ye Aleen, start assignment pun belum kan.

Ce tengok my planner for this September :) Takde la pack sangat kan, and there's the one week of mid semester break !

Two assignments due on the same week, Monday TV Studies assignment, Wednesday Marketing Law assignment. And whatttttttt, 19th they are already publishing the exams timetable?? Oh my this means I have so few weeks left here in Sunway awwww so sadddddddddd T_T

Lepas tu ce tengok planner for the month of October pulak;

October is not really that packed also. There's the International Business Strategy assignment due, and on the final week before Swot Vac there will be TV studies visual test in class, and the next day IBS presentation. Lepas tu Swot Vac! Swot Vac is actually Study without Teaching Vacation or Study Leave as we call it in Malaysia. Hah okay la tu, not bad for my final semester :P

Yeay! 5 weeks to go !! Not sure to be so happy or sad though.

Notakaki: You put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go. You put your arms around me and I'm home.